Fishing for affection
So what do you think when someone tells you they remember that �terrific� lunch you had together? Or they think of you when they pass your office building? Or just that they think of you often....? Yeah! Hello? There�s definitely some feeling still in there for that person.
Well that was Mr. Moody�s e-mails to me this week. Its as though he is fishing for affections I call it. Holding out for hope and wanting confirmation that I�m still HOT for him. I will always be hot for him, but I don�t need him. I�m finally coming to terms with that � really feeling okay with things now the way they are and appear they are going to stay. BUT then Thursday comes and BAM he starts regressing. We are so not in sync any more. Or are we? Is it possible a sign that we are balanced. When I�m feeling needy I e-mail him and reach out for affection, when I draw back he does it to me. I guess it does mean he senses when I draw back and tries to reel me in. I just don�t know what to think about that. I must remember to ask L when she�s back from her trip to the Caribbean�s what her thoughts are on this.
She e-mailed me this morning to let me know how special I am to her. That was nice. She�s feeling so alienated by friends and family she needs someone she can be real with and let her guards down. We know everything about each other and will never judge each other on our actions. I do get mad sometimes when she drops me for a �guy� but its just how she is. I would do the same thing if I thought she wouldn�t find out. LOL.
Okay.... so that beginning was yesterday�s diary. Today is Friday I didn�t get a chance to post it before leaving work. Today Mr. Moody e-mailed me first thing this morning with a TGIF. Its little but it means he was thinking of me first thing. Always nice to know. Its also his way of starting a day of communication. Obviously another important thing here. He did tell me later that his perfect paradise involved him and I on a beach for a week with all the beer we could drink. Hey, sounds good to me. It�s always extra special to know where your place is in someone�s heart. I must be somewhere near the top, right?
He is really looking forward to my party next week. I wonder if its because his wife will be meeting me for the first time. Here goes another prime example of why he�s like a girl� i think he�s nervous about that. It means nothing to me to meet her. I don�t know her and may even like her. She�s just another person to me. There�s no emotional resentment there or anything. He told me she's worried he'll be flirty and wonders if she'll have a good time. I told him she will. Because I'm a likeable person who makes sure everyone has a good time! Hostess with the mostesT!
Well that�s it for now. On to the weekend.... more prep work for next week. Should be fun. Later
4:14 p.m. - 2005-05-13
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