Oh...what and interesting life we lead. Really. I often fantasize about a time when we'll finally slow down and begin to find a total level of comfort.
But, maybe that's not who we are.
So the whole friendship issues with Jen and Sam are behind us. We have lost a great deal of compassion along the way, but at least we are back to doing things together now. The rest will take time. Sam is still a little on edge (or guarded might be a better word) when we are around Jen. I'm having a problem seeing Sam C. as anything more than a friend. Right now its hard to be attracted to a man who claims he doesn't like drama, yet glorifies everything. Just relax...go with the flow and stop worrying about what everyone thinks of you. He tries too hard - its unappealing. Luckily the Sam I'm meant to be attracted to knows how do this. You da man Sam!
So as always with our lifestyle we have been lead towards several new friends. The lates are Aimee and Paul - fun couple. They're too cute. And for some reason (I can't know why) Paul is really into me. Woohoo! Finally! I always feel like I'm just the garnish to Sam. All the ladies and some men are always attracted to him first. When we go into clubs he's making out with 3 or 4 girls before we even get half way through to the dance floor. LOL
This turned around a couple of weeks ago and I got a little carried away with it. Ooops. I learned my lesson, I knew it went to far for a club and Sam and I talked it out. But on a positive note it was good to hear HE was the jealous one standing around for a change. See..so now I know he gets where I'm coming from and I should be speaking my mind more often. He usually gets carried away and often leaves me alone during the night. But not wanting to end the lifestyle or appearing jealous, I don't say anything. How quickly I forget that if we aren't BOTH having fun - its not worth it.
Hard to imagine after this long we are still learning from all this.
So last weekend we did two parties in a row. Friday and Saturday. Friday's was at Curt and Traci's. Fun stuff...hooked up with Rita and Ryan. Lots of fun, but there was probably an alcohol factor...lol.
Saturday was the party I was looking forward to the most. At Aimee and Paul's house. Plus I "knew" Jen and Sam didn't know them so I assumed they wouldn't be there.
We got there and hung out with Ricky and Rye - two of our favorites! It was lots of fun..hanging out watching Paul blow glas and eating a TON of strawberries prepared by Aimee. Then Matt K. came over and was all excited that the Coyls were coming. Ugh..*spoiler*!!
Oddly enough though it was getting later and later and I felt for sure they wouldn't bother. They did.
They showed up around 11:30. We hung with them for a little bit, but it was nice the Riley's (R&R) were there to keep it fun for us! :)
Jen became her usual self playing on everything that moved and Sam stood around chatting it up. Go figure.
We left at 1:30. Believe me, I didn't want to...but we did because its a 45 minute drive and we needed to be home in one piece before Sammy woke up in the morining. - 4 hours after we got home...UGH!!
I'm still not sure how I feel about all of this. I know I am enjoying it. I look forward to a lot more play time, but there are days when I think...Can we just keep this as more of a hobby? LMFAO!! I think we've tried that and turns out we are just natural party animials. Always up for a good time. :D
So be it! These are the days I do actually LOVE MY LIFE!!
3:44 p.m. - 2010-03-31
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