I miss my husband.
Once again - he has hit another stimulus reporting deadline. And to be clear I can take it if my husband had to work long hours and even be away for a week or two at a time. Its the mindless look and zombie personality he develops during these deadlines. He becomes emotionally unavailable...
I feel completely abandoned. If he would just throw me a bone of "How're you doing babe, I miss you" or some expression of endearment, I would probably be okay right now. Instead he comes home and either eats his dinner without a peep, does other little stuff and off to work OR like yesterday he didn't even eat dinner with me, he went straight to work and didn't even give me 10 minutes together. Its so frustrating.
So today I'm sad. He blew up at me for indicating I would have to go over to the neighbors gathering tonight alone. I honestly didn't do this as a jab..he's been posting it on FB that he's so busy, he'll be working through the entire weekend. Then this morning when I left I half-jokingly said...Have a nice day, guess I'll see you tomorrow. Because today we had to drive to work separately knowing he'll be staying late. I honestly don't expect to see him.
*sigh*
I know this would be easier if he was just out of town and I didn't have to see him do little things that take up time and are meaningless. When I see him doing that I feel he could be using that time to give me a hug and let me know he appreciates me taking over the house and kids when he goes into his little world like this. Ugh.
What adds to this is when I find something else to preoccupy my time like FarmVille on FB, then he "suddenly" becomes available and now its ME that isn't showing him affection.
He keeps saying we are both stubborn, but seriously....he starts its ALL the time and I keep asking why am I the one who has to give in and say...ok, lets not fight.
I'm so depressed.
We have a luncheon for a co-worker I really like retiring today. She's a good person and I will miss her immensly, but I don't even feel like being around anyone today.
I just wanna go home and cry.
10:27 a.m. - 2010-04-09
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