Recently we had a personality test performed at work to determine our working personalities. For self-awareness and personal effectiveness.
It seems ever since we've had this evaluation (its on-going for 3-4 months) my supervisor has been OUT TO GET ME!! She's really laying it on thick to point out all the things I do wrong. Even though she's described as an I (Influence)supposed active and accepting, she acts more like a C (Conscientious)which is usually extremely questioning...
I'm neither. I'm categorized as an S (Steadiness) which is someone who is thoughtful and accepting. Sure..why not. Those traits don't really describe the type of people who fall into the DISC (d=dominance btw) styles.
Personally I'm a person who likes to remain calm under stress, likes to be commended for a job well done, but often doesn't take praise well being skeptical its to be lured into some undaunting task.
She's supposedly a team-player, creating a motivational working environment and views people and situations with optimism. BULLSHIT!! She just a bitch! LOL
Yesterday it was an attack after a meeting, where I went above and beyond to give the customer a heads up about a deadline. I gave them the project numbers they need to keep an eye on and look into. But, noooo... that wasn't looked at as "wow - great job, they really seem to appreciate that your're looking out for them" Instead it was "If you're gonna give them reports like that make sure you look each item up and give them all the details of where they are with each one"..Well...hellooo...THEY are the ones who know that best. And let's not forget NOBODY else does this for their customers... just me!! The 2nd thing was a coding issue saying I used a code that wasn't to be used just yet. We have new coding starting July 1st, 2011. But she didnt' say - glad you jumped on their and moved that expense. Instead.."You chose a wrong number, don't do it again." The fact of the matter is - the customer chose that number. Its always up to them where they want items coded and they chose that number. 2nd of all... I corrected it two weeks ago when I saw it. But she never asked me that... instead it was a page long e-mail stating how I do those 2 things wrong.
Ugh.
BITCH!!!
Today - it was another project I did urgently 2 weeks ago. For some reason she was looking at it yesterday. Today she called me over and started with "You need to Re-do the Contracts and Grants Report". I'm shocked... like "I do? Why?" And she kept scrolling all over the pages saying over and over... "this is unorganized, sloppy and quite frankly just COMPLETLEY UNACCEPTABLE" I wanted to cry. But I didn't. How could it be so off? I thought I had done a really good job on it....
So with very little detail to go on she said "clean it up". I left her desk feeling so defeated. I was sad, hurt, then mad. Especially when I found out within 5 minutes it WAS right. So what she really meant was..."make this pretty so I can understand what you did" It was WAY beyond her comprehension apparently. When I went into the reports, not only were they done right, they were done VERY well and with great detail. I admit I had one ommission, which was good that it was caught. The folder consisted of over 80 some reports, so one mistake really wasn't the endof the world. Well for me it kind of is.. LOL. But again, I will say... She's just a bitch!
So I made it pretty. And I sat down to show her all the pretty colors. She didn't say anything. She kept trying to point out things that were wrong. And I calmly showed her the information was provided in clear and concise detail for quick referenec. When she was finished looking at it she jsut said. Ok. - well maybe she muttered a thank you. Not really sure - it certainly wasn't meant. But really?? Is she just LOOKING for things to pick at??
I'm so frustrated. So frustrated. And with the relationships the director has with others on staff, there's nobody to bounce this off of to get insight. Just for fear they would say something to the main boss that I was complaining or something. I just wanna know what to do. I'm hoping this DISC training evaluation thingy helps me understand and figure out a way to work with her..or at least accept her.
I can't wait to get out of here.
~L
2:53 p.m. - 2011-02-17
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