Had an awesome dream last night. Would be even more awesomer if I could have a continuance of that dream or even something better tonight. But I highly doubt that is going to happen, so I guess I better just hold on to the memories of the good times.
Spent the better half of 3 hours today at the emergency room with Emily. She was having suicidal thoughts and had called a hotline for help who thought enough to ask if there was a parental unit in the house and she came to get me. Thank god. They kept asking if I knew if she had a plan. It didn't occur to me until the third time I was asked that the "plan" they were referring to was about how she would go about taking her life and not about how she would look forward to Something in the future.
I suppose that's the difference between someone who is suicidal and someone who is naturally optimistic.
She is in a much better place now mentally. She is home and we (she and I) will work tomorrow trying to find her a psychologist who is qualified to work with her issues, not to mention her insurance.
Interesting enough I've been having a week of stress myself. Getting all up in my head about being lonely. I'm thinking about all the work that has to be done in the next few weeks.....with Sarah packing up our house and moving to an apartment (the temporary living arrangements) until they move to Germany. This will be the fourth trip in 3 months that I have made to New Jersey. It is a long drive and I'm tired just thinking about it.
After having a day of talking things out with Emily and realizing just how bad our local medical center sucks, I seem to find it within to ask Sam why he hasn't come to bed at all in the past 6 weeks. Turns out my complaining about him draping himself over me when he was shit faced drunk one night hurt his feelings. So he decided he just wouldn't come to bed. Ever. But no, he never told me. He made the decision on his own without discussing it with me. Ok. I felt like I should have asked him if we are still married or did he make a decision to be divorced and didn't tell me that either. But even I know that's me going a little over the top. I'm just stressed right now and I could use some support.
11:11 p.m. - 2019-06-27
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