Then and Now:
I can�t help but notice with our 4 year anniversary behind us the major differences in responses I�ve been getting from Sam. 4 years earlier I was the one who set the moon at night. I could never do anything wrong and he cared about my every thought, word and well-being. It just doesn't seem to be that way anymore. He seems to go out of his way to show just how much he can 'really give a flying fuck' what I feel or think.
I�ve decided to make a list of the Then and Nows of our current relationship. Maybe I�ll see that his most recent responses are justified�who knows. But here it goes:
Scenario: Taking an evening drive on the back roads
Me: Oh wow �these winding roads are starting to make me nauseous�.
THEN: I�m sorry honey, I�ll slow down a bit and we�ll be through all the worst ones soon.
NOW: Well next time I�ll just take the drive by myself.
Scenario: Waking up Saturday morning
Me: Good morning (genuine smile for seeing him awake).
THEN: Good morning beautiful�How ya feeling? I say we grab some coffee and go back to bed.
NOW: *silence* Sorry I slept so late, do you need to go back to bed?
(my thoughts on this reoccurence is WHY does he wake up assuming I'm mad at him sleeping in?) Must be because when I get a chance to do it - he's truly pissed.
Scenario: Hanging out watching a movie together.
Me: Honey let�s snuggle up on the couch!
THEN: Mmmm okay. I'll fix us a couple of drinks and meet you there!
NOW: I�m fine over here (on the chair by himself). Then gets up and pulls a beer from the fridge� walks in (sees my look of hurt). Oh�did YOU want a drink too?
I'm sure I'll find more scenario's as they happen over and over again...right now these are the only ones I can think of.
*sigh*
2:25 p.m. - 2010-08-24
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