Just starting one to keep for later here.
Feeling really tired today. Long weekend and I missed Rod.... way too much. Its just getting harder and harder. The weekend started off okay I suppose. I spoke with Rod Friday afternoon even though he was off work. He had called me from his cell while he was at the Home Depot getting wood to finish his deck around the pool. As soon as I heard �hi baby� my heart just melted. He made me so happy �I didn�t want to get off the phone!!! I could tell he was feeling the same way too. We are truly connected. He text message me immediately after we hung up as well�with I love you. Of course I replied back with the same. Guess he�s not too worried about his wife finding his text messages or the phone bill with messages used. I think we both agree that on certain occasions we just get to our wits end and wish that we would have been caught. Its been over a year since our feelings for each other began escalating...� Then the weekend started and went by. Watched fireworks at Lori's but I wasn't even into them.. I kept thinking about Rod and wondering when will WE be able to watch fireworks together. Each day seem to drag on because I didn�t hear from him till Monday. I knew his wife was home all weekend and so I didn�t think he would be able to e-mail or text me, but I was hoping. She won. And I was was lonely.
I just realized by the time I woke up yesterday that I was a little disappointed about the weekend because I had it planned in my mind� that by Monday I will have said or done certain things. And none of that happened. And that made me mad � I felt like a failure to myself. So I have to sit back and re-think my plan, which is all my own fault. If I had dogged things out when I had the perfect opportunity I wouldn�t have to stress about a new plan anymore. Agggghhhhh. I�m a mess! I just want to run away with him and let everyone figure it out���..then deal with the mess after they all know. I know - bad plan, but it�s a great fanatasy! My children would suffer though - and NOBODY is worth that!
11:10 a.m. - 2005-07-05
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